Well its not easy to be over 10 years younger than your siblings. And to live in your very own generation. My sister lives in austin that just so happens to be so far away from my town. Now as much as I love my brother, he can get very religious at times and he has a disability. When I was 15 my sister would always look after me and teach me all kinds of things. Now she's so far away I almost never get to see her.
I saw the most amazing thing right now in my restroom(warning not for people afraid of roaches). A roaches head being carried off by another roach. Now when I see a dead roach in my restroom the first thing I think is "I have a new friend to talk to while I piss." My newest friend had been laying in a different spot every day closer and closer to my bathtub. Now I realise that his own friends that wanted him for themselves. I just loved watching a roach come from behind my door to grab the head that got left behind. If you couldnt tell im not afraid of most things.
The thing that I hate most about myself is that im just so shy! I finally find a guy that I really like and that has things that im looking for and that likes me back. I cant even wave back at him and I know that he would expect me to go up to him and talk to him. Plus I would really love to have someone around that could help keep my mind off of drugs. Its been 4 weeks but its so hard to keep my mind off things.
I also realised that im an insomniac but im hoping that its just my body getting used to this change. For the last week ive been getting 4-5 hours of sleep. We will see how that works out.
you sound like a intresting person, and we all need someone to help us, and intresting thing about the cockroach,
ReplyDeletehey man :)
ReplyDeleteI have insomnia too...ive had it for several years. I get about 3 hours of sleep every night. its kinda rough...
and about being shy, i think in some way we are all shy because we have to go wayyyy out of our comfort zone to talk to people that we like in that way. the only thing i can say is to try to just be around him more. even if you don't have it in you to go up to him and talk just yet, just try and be in his general area more first, then work into talking to him.
dont let an opportunity pass u by though...if u look back and regret it, its the worst feeling in the world (been there).
take care man, be strong.
-Landyn <3