Im starting to feel left out now, or is it that im starting to become more and more independent from my friends. Im stressing out so much because I will only have 2 good friends next year even though thats not going to happen for a while.
I started thinking about what bunny told me in the library the other day. She had told me that she is used to losing friends, and that she doesnt mind just throwing someone away (i had to put that in my own words because I forgot the words she used) So I responded by saying that im going to live in her living in her house until the end of time.
I almost spent the night at my dads house today. What the hell was I thinking? I hate being ever at his house because (1) his wife has 3 other kids (2) My 3 year old sister gets very clingy when I visit (3) I cant be alone at anytime when I go over. I also forgot to say that my dad and his wife usually dont care about how dirty the house gets.
The only reason why I was going to spend the night is because my friend lives close and I didnt want to make my mom pick me up and then drop me off when my dad lives around the corner. I wanted to go over to my friends house to help out with her cousin who lives with her. Hes having a hard time deciding what he is into. He says he doesnt like guys or girls, I tried to tell her that he just might be one of those people who doesnt want anything. He freaked out when she told him that she was going to try and "get him with one of her friends". To be honest I would freak out also if she told me that, only because she is one of those girls that doesnt care what people think and will talk about anime and mangas all day long. Plus no one likes her boyfriend at all (he is the biggest jerk ever) so Its just hard to not over think when someone like that tells you she wants to play love doctor.
Im starved and all we have is beer and bar food. I might go over to my dads house and get fat while i eat everything in his fridge. Dont worry, my moms not a drunk she just doesnt by allot of food.
(I hang out with all the freaks and outcasts, its just the type of people i love the most)
An interesting image. Obviously a take on the Lady of the Lake mythology.
ReplyDeleteI apologize for not commenting on your personal issues but I find I don't have anything useful to say. I've always had more friends that were younger or older than I was at the time though I do have friends my own age as well.
So losing a particular group to graduation was never a problem for me. I sincerely hope you find your path through this issue.
Dr M