What happens when all eyes are on you and nothing happens but complete fail? I could tell you but it would involve pain. Right now I dont think I could take any more pain. My heart is aching and it needs to drink from a fountain that hasnt worked for a while. I know how to turn it on but afraid that the once perfect water will be nothing but dust. Im glad I managed to save all the fish that he left behind.
I used to love talking about love. I used to love being in love. I used to love being loved. Now I feel used up and empty inside.
(i kept on forgeting to hit my space bar)
I think you are experiencing the same exquisite 'growing pain' that every creature of beauty goes through as it develops into maturity. The pain is intense and real, but it goes away eventually, and you will probably forget how bad it was. And telling you this won't be much help to you. But I will tell you anyway.
ReplyDeleteyoure last sentence really got to me because thats how i feel too, like i wonder if anybody will ever love me again, but i have to believe it will happen.
ReplyDeleteits the pain we feel to let us know we are breathing, its the love we feel to let us know we are wanted, without pain and love we will not exist, with love and pain, we strive to found the wanted person.
ReplyDeleteanyway wat are u upto,
Take a chance. Sure, sometimes you get a mouthful of dust but that makes it even better when you find yourself dancing in the fountain.
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