I feel like im going in circles right now. Every time I look down I see my own footprint. I feel so stupid for making the same mistake over and over again. Sadly it took me 4 long years to realise it. So now i feel as if ive finally met that well that I fell into so many years ago.
I just hate making knew friends. I dont want any more broken memories of any more people. I have TOO many friends that I left behind. I think thats one reason that I dont want to make new friends. I grow too attached, and then I have to leave them behind. The last time was my fault and I didnt even say goodbye to my friends.
Then I have my love life. Im so shy that I wont ever be able to really talk to anyone that I really like. Every time I try to even flirt with them in some way I end up stoping. I dont know how im able to flirt with guys I hardly even care for. Dont get me wrong, if a guy even looks my way then I might as well make them feel good about themselves. Im not just doing it for myself, plus I might have a chance to help someone out of the closet.
School is going ok, english is my only class that seems to be doing anything real. I have to make a poem and ive never been real good at that. My brain+organized thinking=???? It just doesnt work out. Poems are just one of the few things my mind cant work out that well. I think its just that I expect the best out of it and what I get is nothing more then crap. Im also reading Narrative Of The Life Of Frederick Douglass, An american Slave, its just for fun really.
(I make the M in S&M)
What have I told you about using poetic and lyrical imagery when you write? You will turn into a long haired poet, and start describing the world in a way that will make even an old man weep with joy at the clarity of it!
ReplyDeleteNever, never, never give up!! G =]
nice to see ya bck, and dont worry life comes clear when we aint looking for anwsear.
ReplyDeletei once seen a cool film, very long , but cool about how an afican slave got capture, and his fight.
anyway i am going to watch lost.