So I think I remember who the real me is. I forgot when I moved schools. I forgot when I started to fit in (not a good thing). That guy left after my first year of high school. NO. That guy left after I finished middle school. I miss the old friends, before I moved to this side of town. I know they were all dorks or nerds, but at least I used to fit in. Now I feel so far out of me element.
I wounder if they would still be around if I moved back. I know they wouldn't even recognize me. Ive become every thing I used to hate. I think my mom had better plans.
((Im done living this lie))
What can I say, other than 'bravo' on realising that wherever you are, nothing remains the same, and that we must always try to be true to ourselves: that is hard, and our surroundings - school, associates, etc - make it hard to do. The first step is to realise that!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about what plans other people may have for you - you are becoming a man - and no parent could want for anything more than that.
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So much changes in a few years. Have the strength to stay true to who you really are.
ReplyDeleteyou can never go back, kid, that's life!!! You can return to a geographic spot; I like to call that (facetiously) the geographic cure. Many have tried, few succeed. You see, everyone and everything changes, maybe just a little at a time, but enough that when you try to reclaim what you knew, it just isn't there anymore. that's one of life's conundrums. It might seem frustrating or even sad, but the reality is that without change, life would be quite boring. So, try to adjust, you change as well, and everyone around you is faced with the same dilemma; the trick is to embrace it with grace. It'll serve you well!!
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