Monday I asked him over to my house, he said he neeeded permission. Monday night I gained another reason to stay up all night.
Tuesday I went through the entire day of school to wait for an answer. He said he needed to clean his room. I also gave him the best hug Ive ever given another soul on this earth.
Wednesday, I somehow unintentionally avoided him. I had very important things to talk to him about and I never got the chance. Everything was so planed out.
I think this kid might be driving me crazy.
It's nice crazy though! Epic stuff =]
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ReplyDeleteyou're not going crazy, you're learning how to love... It ain't easy! Sometimes there is a fair exchange, sometimes there isn't; Not only that, there is every possibility in between... What you are experiencing is the agony of love. I wish I could give you a big hug and tell you that it will all be easier and better, but I wouldn't promise you that... What I can promise you is that you are a better person for this, no matter how it turns out... That might seem crazy, because of the pain and confusion that you're experiencing right now- you want him to spend the night; you want him to hug you like you hugged him; you want him to share the most intimate thing you can offer another human being...There's nothing crazy about that! Those are all human needs- we all deserve to be loved! All the advice in the world won't change this- this is something that ALL loving people must endure. It is what separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom, although I think animals love as well, just in a different way... That's also why chocolate has been a favorite confection for thousands of years! lol Hang in there kid, I'll be thinking of you!!! luv tman
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