Well mirrorboy your very much right. Im a very blunt person that really doesnt give a shit most of the time. I get in trouble at school sometimes because I might put some word that offends someones race or I might wright words that are "bad". So I end up getting 10-20 points off each time. For me its just so normal to use those words because I just dont know how else to express myself.
I often get failing grades in school. Not because im stupid or because I dont understand the work. I just hate easy work. Almost every teacher gives me easy work, I look over it, then I set it aside because I just saw all the answers and know I dont feel like doing it. I just love a challenge SO much that if I know what to do in a matter of seconds then I just give up on it. So far no class can keep me mentally stimulated.
( planed on making another blog for this but im feeling lazy)
The first time that I made any sort of contact with him was a train wreck. Now, I thought that if I didnt think about anything when I walked up to him then I wouldnt get nervous. I just walked up to to and said hi, he said hi and then my mind just went blank. I wasnt thinking of anything so I couldnt get past the first word. It was that, and the surprised face that he put on that started to make me shake. I looked over to my friend behind me to and when I turned around he was gone. A shy guy trying to talk to an even shyer guy is a disaster but in the days to come things would work themselves out. Im so glad my best friend was standing next to me so I didnt have to be alone. On that day I felt like an idiot and I couldnt stop calling myself stupid. Well im glad we had the same class together after that because I soon learned that he would still flirt with me. The only problem is that I dont want to flirt. For so many years thats all ive been doing is just flirting around. It did boost my ego up to see how many guys I could flirt with. It also made me sad to know that I wouldnt ever get to have my way with them.
The worst part about it all was that I knew all his friends so I could easly stand next to him and do what I do best, be cute. My one super power is to be cute at any time I want. So fun and lovable. And thats what I did, I stood next to him grabbed a piece of bread that every one was having fun with (yeah his friends are having fun with bread) and I made the bread ten times better by making a smiley face in it. Oh how that plain old bread once a cold lifeless object then the next second it became a dead piece of bread all because I forgot a nose. So my plan failed because I forgot to make a way for my bread to breath
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ReplyDeleteme too, it great when you recived comments, i also like reading your blog,its very beautifull. and if you can do the work, why dont you do it, we all must do work we dont enjoy, just got to look past and towards a bigger pic and hope finally there give you something harder to do, when there see you want a challenge and not to give up but what do i know.
and i am happy for you, i shall this really cute guy talking to a bus driver, i looked at him and he looked at me, unfourntely i was upstairs and only saw him when i got off the bus, life can be unfair sometimes.
but thumbs up to you.
mental stimulation - i now crave it as well.
ReplyDeleteMy teacher's said i should take the advanced learning course at high school when i was 12 years old.
I declined, because i wanted to be with my friends.
That opportunity has passed my by now.
And now i go to school, and sit with my friends, and i do the dumb work with the dumb kids - 'learning' what i was smart enough to already know.
But not every class is like that.
If you do the easy work when it's given to you, and show that it was too easy, then you may get something harder the next time.
Then, it is up to you. Like you said, you don't give a shit anyways.
===>mirrorboy<===
u know, as stupid as it may sound, the last part of your post made me think a lot....the part about the bread and how after the fact u actually thought about giving it a nose. not many ppl think that way, and it shows that u pay attention to details, etc.
ReplyDeleteacting cute=more powerful than a gun in many cases. way to use that haha, just dont become 'fake'...
anyways, keep up the writing :) the style that u write in is rlly interesting to read.
peace man,
Landyn