2005 was the year that i got the internet. I was 14-15 with nothing else to do. During that time I did what any other teen would do with it. I looked at porn but at the time I didnt know that I was different. One of the first sites I found was gaiaonline.com but that seems like so long ago.
When I moved into my current position (late 2006) I relied on my moms wireless mac to bring me the comforts of the internet. So soon I learned that the internet had more to give me then porn and gaia. I learned that my attraction to guys wasnt natural so I tried to hide it. By the end of school (2007) I had grown an obsesion over a guy. At that time I thought it was love but now I know that I dont know what love is.
By mid 2008 , before I started reading blogs I decided that more then just my close friends should know that I was gay. So when I stopped giving a shit I started to read blogs. Most of it helped me reflect on my own decisions that I had made and that I would make.
(i want to make you my family)
i know most if this makes sense
... and when I was reading 'gaia' it was all about white daisy and black daisy theory. How the world has moved on!
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