June 11, 2010

Just one of my demons eating me up inside

I remember being a very young kid and being mad that only girls could date boys and boys could only date girls. No boys+boys and girls+girls. So I had ealy thoughts of wanting to become a girl. Sadly I gave up on those dreams and learnd that boys can get with boys and girls can get with girls.
I do however, get these feelings of becomeing a girl. If anything its my feelings from when I was a small child. Its just that these are very strong feelings that come very fast and leave faster. Deep inside I realy do want to become a girl. Im also very very happy being a guy and I wouldnt want to change that.

3 comments:

  1. I'm not quite sure what to say... You want to be a girl, but, you don't want to stop being a boy?? It sounds like some kind of internal struggle- an attempt to find an easier path than the one that you're on... I felt the same way about the unfairness of the predominantly hetero world when I was your age... But, my struggle has been with that unfairness; I've never felt that I should be someone other than who I am, today.... Well, except for the feeling that I belonged in the 18th century, since I was a kid!! lol
    So, now that you mention it, is this something that 'haunts' you? You say 'Demons'... Do you think of this often?? Or, are these just memories from your childhood? Lots of questions, no answers... lol Fill us in, kid!! luv, tman<3

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  2. you know boy or girl you would still be awesome.
    Just calling by to say 'lo'
    Nick X (that's a kiss) hehehehe...

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